Durham's Tongue

tomorrow

today I pulled out my big camera.

gave d some cookies.

and turned on dinosaur train.

I wanted to watch him eating. I wanted to watch the way his tongue moved. the way it looked with that little crease on the end. I wanted pictures of it. documentation of how he was made. he was made just like his daddy. a connected tongue frenulum. because of the severity of durham's connection he is completely tongue-tied. Our pediatric ent mentioned that it was one of the 'tightest' cases she has ever seen. Tomorrow our baby will undergo a surgery to disconnect the underpart of his tongue from the bottom of his mouth.

We know it's common, and that he is in great hands. 

but, we are parents. and parents worry.

I want to.

I want to blog.

I want to want to blog.

I want to make time for it.

I want to enjoy it again.

I want to. but I just don't right now. part of me feels overwhelmed because I got so far behind. I have so much between D's first birthday and now that I've let fall through my fingers. I've cherished it, smelled it, felt it, enjoyed it, hugged and kissed it, but I haven't blogged it. I want to. I want to make sure that I have the evidence of the memories. something to spark my heart and take me back to these moments. the small ones. I want to. and I will.

15 months

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Merry Christmas 2012