Tuesday, March 8, 2011

yesterday, today, and tomorrow....

Yesterday I had jury duty...
which was fine because my SIL's BFF was there and we just sat and gossiped the day away...
no numbers were called and no one was taken upstairs to the court room. 
me and 300 of my new closest friends just sat and waited.

Today I had to go back...
I expected much more of the same...
even brought my laptop so I could get caught up on some stuff.

At 8:45am they called my number.
I went up to the main court room and waited with 47 other potential jurors...
not knowing what a gut-wrenching day this would turn out to be.

Without giving too many awful details...
it was State vs. alleged child molester
just hearing the judge read the charges made my 
stomach twist in knots and my eyes fill up with tears.
there were three kids... with the same last name as the defendant.
I almost got sick.

I sat there waiting for my turn to be questioned...
praying that God's will be done in this case...
that He comfort those babies. those kids. that He hug them and hold them close.
praying to God that they dont pick me. knowing that I could never sit there and listen to this testamony.

They choose 12 jurors and 4 alternates.
not me. I was safe.

I cryed all the way home.
I thought of every sweet baby I know and I prayed for them by name.

 I am thankful for a soft heart.
I am thankful for a safe home.
I am thankful for going back to work.... tomorrow.


15 comments:

capperson said...

Oh my goodness, that is soo sad! So glad that you didn't have to go through that! I don't believe I could have either!

theultimate said...

What a heart-breaking time! It's so sad to think about the poor babies that have gone through something like that. Thanks for reminding me to pray for those children though. That's definitely something I will think about more now.

Ben and Emily said...

Wow. What an awful thing to have to deal with. Glad you weren't chosen though!

kristy.lynn @ kristy.makes said...

i cannot even imagine. i've been fortunate enough to evade it the few times i've been called. but i can't imagine having to hear something so.. so.. tragic. i'm so glad you didn't have to go through that, i can't imagine what it's like for those that have to. or those poor children...

mommara said...

I can not imagine people not loving their babies. Makes me hold mine a little closer. :( So glad you didn't get picked. Movies.

Julie @ My Life...Inspired said...

I don't think I could have sat there without being sick. Thank god you did not get picked and have to sit through that any longer than you did. I've worked with children who have been through that and its so sad to see them years later, struggling to live a "normal" life. It really breaks my heart to think that this stuff happens...

The Hill House said...

Your comment about being thankful for a soft heart brought tears to my eyes. Prayers for everyone involved in this situation.

Lori said...

I've been a child welfare worker for 10 years now and I also am so thankful for reminders like this. Having done it so long, my heart doesn't always break anymore. I need to hear my friends say things like this to remind me that these are children - creations of God - and not just another case so thanks for that!

MayLove said...

I'm always stunned by how a person could do something like this to any child, and even more how they could do it to their own child. What a betrayal, what a monstrous thing to do. I just can't imagine what those poor children must have gone through, and will continue to go through for the rest of their lives. So sad. I'm glad that you don't have to suffer through the trial, but I do pray that the people who do, do the right thing and punish this monster.

Anonymous said...

I've had too many people in my life who are victims and actually lived a so called normal enough life to tell their stories now and help others. It is a sad terrible thing that we sometimes wonder and ask God, "Why?" I mean really I am a person who truly believes God has a plan and purpose for everything but it still is so hard for me to find any kind of answer or justification for this topic. But all I know is that God will provide justice in his timing and we just have to trust in that and pray for all the little ones we know while we are still here on this earth...
To all the sweet little ones.. I hope you know you have a Heavenly Father who loves you more than anything...enough to die for you on the cross and will one day take all your pain away and take you to a place where you can never be harmed again!

kirkandmona said...

I wish I could have been there to hold you and comfort you. I'm glad God was. May your heart always stay tender--you are one special lady!

The Great Elephant Symposium said...

What an awful thing! That is so sad! Poor babies :( I'm so glad you didn't have to go back!

Unique Finds and Designs said...

Oh my goodness! Those poor babies! :(
Also, thanks for the heads up on the camera, mine comes today :)

Cisilia "cc" said...

I pray for them babies often my prayers come from a special place in my heart. to be aware and thankful for what we have is a blessing for sure. HUGS to you ALWAYS Love you

ashley (redonk runner) said...

awww i completely think the empathy road is better even though it's hard having to hear or learn about bad things! plus since you care so much it probably got you out of being a juror :) (that how non-partial thing)

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